December 21 Project. What did you start this year that you’re proud of?
I am so happy to write that I am completely resolved / at peace with everyone in my life. It was not easy and it was full of several false stops and starts. However, as of a couple of weeks ago, I can honestly say that I am not holding anything in my heart against anyone. I have resolved any ongoing conflicts (there were only a couple) with the people in my life.
As with anything worth attaining, it came at a cost. I think that the biggest cost was losing just a bit of my “Pollyanna” view of life. At heart, I am my mother’s daughter. She sees the world with rose-colored glasses. She expects the best of everyone and assumes that it is a mistake if someone doesn’t give their best. I’m just like that. I really love to understand where people are coming from and vice versa – not necessarily agree, but understand. The main problems with that though is a.) everyone else doesn’t necessarily “assume the best” and b.) it’s not my job to persuade them otherwise. To just “let go”, accept people for whom they are and to move on – it’s both a bit sad and freeing at the same time.
I’m hoping really hard that I won’t need to revisit this project in the new year/new decade!